Not the first time I’ve been here. This is a place that I’ve frequented many times. Too many times. I always promise myself, I’ll never return here. Yet, I find myself here very often.
Did the procrastinator in me win again? Did he push me into the deep procrastination abyss again? I think it did. It’s been 183 days since my last post here. Just over 6 months. I avoided this place like it doesn’t exist.
I can make so many excuses, I can make up so many stories but who am I fooling? No one, not even myself now.
I write these words while in bed. My wife and son, sleeping by my side, unaware of my failure to keep promises, couldn’t sleep thinking about all that could have been. Opened up my laptop and after spending 2 hours mindlessly reading shit, I just decided to login here. Here I am, again.